THE DO LIFE CHALLENGE
*An Update on Week Four*
January 22 - 28
So in the spirit of *Week Four Teamwork* I enlisted a friend to give me some of their personal January goals:
1. Drink more water.
2. Drink less soda.
3. Rely less on prepared food/cook more.
4. Read more.
5. Eat better.
My friend says that water consumption is up and soda consumption is down! BUT all other goals have not been great. I understand though, it is tough to do in one week's time. I know from experience that setting goals like these is really awesome but follow through can be tricky.
And of course my goals:
1. Exercise 4 to 5 times per week.
2. Cook at least 3 healthful meals.
3. Read at least one GRE/Grad school book.
4. Juice 6 out of 7 days.
5. Choose something to accomplish on my official TO-DO list.
And push-up count this week.
The plain truth is, I have ignored my goals this week pretty much completely. I did accomplish some good stuff on my to-do list by accident but beyond that I have been "existing" best as I can.
This has been my last week with Violet. I start my new day job on Monday.
I have been down, depressed and pretty out-there all week long. I haven't taken my health seriously and I have had multiple emotional freak-outs. I am nervous and worried about my little Violet and new job and I cannot sleep or eat well.
I am essentially going to pay a homecare sitter to watch my child while I am at work. Forget about enrolling her in a preschool or legitimate daycare facility, those are so beyond my means it is laughable. A huge chunk of my pay (almost half) will go towards her care... which makes me wonder: why am I paying someone else to raise my child?
How do other women do this? How can anyone leave their baby like that? How do working mothers do this!?
What if she forgets about me or grows to love the sitter (and her house/children/routine) more than me? Will I miss out on precious time I can never recover? Am I choosing work over her? Is it worth the commute and gas money and lower salary?
I separated from Violet's daddy some months ago, so right now we divide her time between us. I have her during each weekday and he has her in the evenings and then, we split up the weekends. That means when I start this new day job, we will both be seeing her WAY LESS. It is making us both even more crazy than we were to begin with!
I don't know. All of this terrifies the bejesus out of me. Plus I am scared about being cool as a new employee. I don't know how to behave in a professional environment anymore. I don't know if I have nice enough clothes. I don't know how to use the computer applications like I used to. I feel like I am way the hell out of my league here.
I am pretty much losing my shit right now. Yikes!!! I need to chill out more than I have ever needed to before in my life.
*An Update on Week Four*
January 22 - 28
So in the spirit of *Week Four Teamwork* I enlisted a friend to give me some of their personal January goals:
1. Drink more water.
2. Drink less soda.
3. Rely less on prepared food/cook more.
4. Read more.
5. Eat better.
My friend says that water consumption is up and soda consumption is down! BUT all other goals have not been great. I understand though, it is tough to do in one week's time. I know from experience that setting goals like these is really awesome but follow through can be tricky.
And of course my goals:
1. Exercise 4 to 5 times per week.
2. Cook at least 3 healthful meals.
3. Read at least one GRE/Grad school book.
4. Juice 6 out of 7 days.
5. Choose something to accomplish on my official TO-DO list.
And push-up count this week.
The plain truth is, I have ignored my goals this week pretty much completely. I did accomplish some good stuff on my to-do list by accident but beyond that I have been "existing" best as I can.
This has been my last week with Violet. I start my new day job on Monday.
I have been down, depressed and pretty out-there all week long. I haven't taken my health seriously and I have had multiple emotional freak-outs. I am nervous and worried about my little Violet and new job and I cannot sleep or eat well.
I am essentially going to pay a homecare sitter to watch my child while I am at work. Forget about enrolling her in a preschool or legitimate daycare facility, those are so beyond my means it is laughable. A huge chunk of my pay (almost half) will go towards her care... which makes me wonder: why am I paying someone else to raise my child?
How do other women do this? How can anyone leave their baby like that? How do working mothers do this!?
What if she forgets about me or grows to love the sitter (and her house/children/routine) more than me? Will I miss out on precious time I can never recover? Am I choosing work over her? Is it worth the commute and gas money and lower salary?
I separated from Violet's daddy some months ago, so right now we divide her time between us. I have her during each weekday and he has her in the evenings and then, we split up the weekends. That means when I start this new day job, we will both be seeing her WAY LESS. It is making us both even more crazy than we were to begin with!
I don't know. All of this terrifies the bejesus out of me. Plus I am scared about being cool as a new employee. I don't know how to behave in a professional environment anymore. I don't know if I have nice enough clothes. I don't know how to use the computer applications like I used to. I feel like I am way the hell out of my league here.
I am pretty much losing my shit right now. Yikes!!! I need to chill out more than I have ever needed to before in my life.
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