Saturday

Yes.

I apologize for the profanity but this is so true right now.  I am a bag of nerves and I am trying hard to chill out.

I finished my last day of work on Friday.  It was pretty crazy!  But I don't think it has really truly hit me, I don't feel any different yet.  I think it will when I leave Violet at the sitter on Monday morning and start the trek to my new job.

I've wanted to feel this huge sense of relief about my job change but I have only felt stress over Violet's child care situation.  It has been a HUGE problem and I cannot be peaceful until I find a facility that is acceptable to me.  I am working on this each day and I am making it my main priority until I feel good about it...

I am nervous about my new job! I haven't been doing the kind of mental or professional preparation beforehand because I am so caught up in everything else.  I think when I can get my Violet stuff pinned down, I can calm the eff down for real.

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I attended Violet's soccer class today.  At the suggestion of Violet and her Daddy, we sat in the hallway and let her "do her thing" without us watching.  She excelled!  She eagerly participated, received much praise from coach and other parents, and she totally exceeded my expectations.  I am very proud of her!!  I guess she just needed to be on her own, without Mommy and Daddy.