Making the decision to have children is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. - E. Stone
Today Violet said, "I don't want to grow up." And I wholeheartedly agreed. I don't want her to either! I love her this way, still small enough to carry and hold close. Her little legs wrap around my waist so tight. Her head snuggles into my neck. She is heavy now though, a sure sign that she won't be able to be picked-up + held for much longer. I will miss it so so much. I already miss many things about my baby V but the big girl I know now is so wonderful as well. Our conversations are definitely more interesting and she shares affection now without cause.
An update:
1. I have been dealing with some cuckoo-crazy garbage, family-wise as of late. The psychotic behavior of some of my family members is off the damn charts. I know most people can relate, we all have 'em in our families. Hell, some of us ARE that person. Oh well.
2. My diet was slipping for a few days around Christmas time. Even this morning was iffy but I cleaned it up just in time and I am back on track. I made two juices today: beet/apple/carrot/celery and kale/spinach/apple/parsley.
A few days ago I went to my first raw restaurant, Revitalive Cafe. I did not take any pictures of my meal, although I had intended to. I ate it up pretty quick as it was very good. I ordered a "burger" and shared a chocolate brownie bar for dessert. All natural and uncooked and really really delicious! Best veggie burger I have ever eaten, better than cooked for sure. I can't wait to go back again and try more from the menu.
3. For Christmas I received some new sneakers (for working out at the gym or outside in spring!!). And also, a gift certificate to Bikram Yoga. So I am definitely in position to resume moving my body when the time is right.
4. I have been looking at graduate schools again like mad. I don't know though, it is so much money and I have to take the stupid GRE too. I am feeling pretty flat about the whole thing. Can I be financed? I already owe about a billion dollars for my undergraduate degree.
Even though I am scared that I am not good enough to go back to school and I don't know how the heck I would afford it, I am downright excited about the prospect of it. I love school, I love learning and I want to do something more with my life and career. I know I am more than capable of the academics of it all, I am one smart cookie. I just don't quite know how to "get there" yet.
Honestly I want to do something so much better, professionally. I want to love what I do, make a difference and make some cash! I want to make enough money to someday finance Violet's education AND have enough to do my yoga schooling too. I pretty much want it all.
Today Violet said, "I don't want to grow up." And I wholeheartedly agreed. I don't want her to either! I love her this way, still small enough to carry and hold close. Her little legs wrap around my waist so tight. Her head snuggles into my neck. She is heavy now though, a sure sign that she won't be able to be picked-up + held for much longer. I will miss it so so much. I already miss many things about my baby V but the big girl I know now is so wonderful as well. Our conversations are definitely more interesting and she shares affection now without cause.
An update:
1. I have been dealing with some cuckoo-crazy garbage, family-wise as of late. The psychotic behavior of some of my family members is off the damn charts. I know most people can relate, we all have 'em in our families. Hell, some of us ARE that person. Oh well.
2. My diet was slipping for a few days around Christmas time. Even this morning was iffy but I cleaned it up just in time and I am back on track. I made two juices today: beet/apple/carrot/celery and kale/spinach/apple/parsley.
A few days ago I went to my first raw restaurant, Revitalive Cafe. I did not take any pictures of my meal, although I had intended to. I ate it up pretty quick as it was very good. I ordered a "burger" and shared a chocolate brownie bar for dessert. All natural and uncooked and really really delicious! Best veggie burger I have ever eaten, better than cooked for sure. I can't wait to go back again and try more from the menu.
3. For Christmas I received some new sneakers (for working out at the gym or outside in spring!!). And also, a gift certificate to Bikram Yoga. So I am definitely in position to resume moving my body when the time is right.
4. I have been looking at graduate schools again like mad. I don't know though, it is so much money and I have to take the stupid GRE too. I am feeling pretty flat about the whole thing. Can I be financed? I already owe about a billion dollars for my undergraduate degree.
Even though I am scared that I am not good enough to go back to school and I don't know how the heck I would afford it, I am downright excited about the prospect of it. I love school, I love learning and I want to do something more with my life and career. I know I am more than capable of the academics of it all, I am one smart cookie. I just don't quite know how to "get there" yet.
Honestly I want to do something so much better, professionally. I want to love what I do, make a difference and make some cash! I want to make enough money to someday finance Violet's education AND have enough to do my yoga schooling too. I pretty much want it all.
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