Senin, 19 Desember 2011

Monday

Last week was a rollercoaster for me.  First I was hopeful and crazy excited, then very sad and disappointed.

I had this job interview.  And it went pretty well, as far as how I handled it.  I spoke easily and with confidence.  I studied my questions and wore a simple, pretty dress.  I took my time and only stumbled through a few things.  I was still nervous so there were a few awkward silences.  Overall it was successful though and I drove away from the meeting feeling really good, like I might actually have a shot this time!

This particular job opportunity hit home for me, big time.  It was for a museum (being a art history major, this was *perfect* for me and my education/experience!) and the hours were full-time seasonal/part-time non-seasonal (hello Violet time!).  The grounds were beautiful and the buildings/exhibition spaces were incredible.  I think I fell in love with the idea of working in this amazing place.  I knew that I could do the job and that I would LOVE to do the job too.  I wanted this job so much, I was literally dreaming about the things I could do in this position.  I was SO ready to start this new thing I could feel it in my bones.  I suppose I kind of set myself up for a fall but I was too excited to control my imagination.

The deadline for the employer's response came and went.  I knew I did not get it and of course, expected the "thanks but no thanks" letter, which came promptly.  It was a huge rejection for me and my ego suffered so much.  I cried and whined and felt a pain like heartbreak.  I know I know, it was just a job.  But I saw my future in it and it was something I found meaning in... finally.

I hope I stumble upon similiar again SOON and that I get another chance to possibility do something worthwhile.

I won't settle and I can't give up.

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