Mondays lately have been HELL.
Violet, hating school as much as she does, has encouraged me to fear the beginning of the week.
Today was much better though, I am happy to report. I think a combination of things came together to help the home-to-school transition move more smoothly. Her Daddy definitely helped too, working with her this weekend a lot, helping her prepare mentally for school and for that I am very thankful. :)
When I dressed this morning, I needed to choose something pretty for work but also, not too heavy because the temps today will reach near 90 degrees. I put on a blue flowy dress and went into Violet's room to see her. She exclaimed, "Mommy looks beautiful!"
It literally made me feel like A MILLION BUCKS. The men in my life say it, maybe my Mum or friends do too sometimes. But this is the first time I heard Violet say it like that and it meant the world to me. I believed her and I felt like the most special person on the planet.
Days like today, beautiful and sunny and so full of prospective outdoor adventure, make me miss her SO MUCH. I should be out there with Violet running and playing and learning. I knew that working full time would suck for that reason, that I would miss our time together. But sitting here thinking about how much I miss my girl hurts more than I can say. It is a funny thing: I thought what I wanted all these years was a job that made me feel like I was important. I wanted that soooo bad I cried for it, whined, thrashed and got sad over it. I thought that would be what makes me who I am. Now that I am on the other side I see what is most important. And it ain't no job. It is only Violet. She is a huge chunk of what is good and wonderful about who I am. I am lucky to be her Mother.
Violet, hating school as much as she does, has encouraged me to fear the beginning of the week.
Today was much better though, I am happy to report. I think a combination of things came together to help the home-to-school transition move more smoothly. Her Daddy definitely helped too, working with her this weekend a lot, helping her prepare mentally for school and for that I am very thankful. :)
When I dressed this morning, I needed to choose something pretty for work but also, not too heavy because the temps today will reach near 90 degrees. I put on a blue flowy dress and went into Violet's room to see her. She exclaimed, "Mommy looks beautiful!"
It literally made me feel like A MILLION BUCKS. The men in my life say it, maybe my Mum or friends do too sometimes. But this is the first time I heard Violet say it like that and it meant the world to me. I believed her and I felt like the most special person on the planet.
Days like today, beautiful and sunny and so full of prospective outdoor adventure, make me miss her SO MUCH. I should be out there with Violet running and playing and learning. I knew that working full time would suck for that reason, that I would miss our time together. But sitting here thinking about how much I miss my girl hurts more than I can say. It is a funny thing: I thought what I wanted all these years was a job that made me feel like I was important. I wanted that soooo bad I cried for it, whined, thrashed and got sad over it. I thought that would be what makes me who I am. Now that I am on the other side I see what is most important. And it ain't no job. It is only Violet. She is a huge chunk of what is good and wonderful about who I am. I am lucky to be her Mother.
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