WORK!
Yikes, four days on the job and I am pooped already.
But I like my new job, I really really do.
As I drive into the museum location, kind of out in the middle of nowhere, I see the fields and buildings and signs. The trees and snow covered grounds are so beautiful. I have a moment, an internal sigh. It is nice. I don't feel dread or frustration or reservation anymore. This is a new place for me and a new feeling about work.
My work load is huge. And I sit at a desk for almost eight straight hours, trying to untangle all of the duties that I am not quite sure about yet. Do I know how to use all of the Office applications, NO WAY. Do I know how to use that monster printing machine and my email properly, NO WAY. Do I sometimes feel like I have no freakin' clue what is going on, YES! It is a work in serious progress right now. I feel like a newborn just seeing the real world for the first time at times, and it is scary.
Each day I have a rollercoaster of feeling. I accomplish something and feel on-top-of-the-world! Then in the next minute, I totally screw up or do not know how to do a simple task - and I feel like a fool. I hope this is normal and it passes as I become more familiar with my new position.
I put a ton of Violet photographs on my desk and on my bulletin board behind it. I also have some of her artwork at home and I plan to put some up asap. My office walls are bare -- I need some color and Violet-style inspiration!
Violet seems to be okay... as far as our new work/sitter/home schedule is concerned. She has acted up some, but I can't say it is totally related to this new thing or not. She likes the sitter. She had one rough morning out of three, crying that she did not want to go there. She said she wanted to stay with me. It was hard to bring her that day but the sitter was awesome, distracted her as soon as we arrived. I left there feeling better and confident that I we would make it just fine.
I still want her to be in a care facility that is more structured. I want her to be in a learning environment, if she must be away from home. But right now I am sending her where we can afford and looking elsewhere when I can.
Although she seems to be okay with all of this change, she has grown accustomed to sleeping in Mommy and Daddy's beds, which is NOT A GOOD THING AT ALL. It makes for restless nights - for me definitely - and very tired mornings. Not to mention it just seems weird to let happen anymore, she is a big girl now and should be sleeping in her big girl bed. Habits like these are easy to start and hard to break, but like everything else, we will work on the solution.
I think because we are in such a transitional period, as a family and as people (me, V-spot and her Daddy), we have let things slide a little. Letting her sleep in our beds, buying extra toys/pets and trying like hell to make sure she is happy and loved.... We have to watch our actions now, as she is darn smart and knows how to take advantage already.
We have to make sure we do not allow or set-up this potential for bad behavior and brattiness right now because that will come back to bite us, big time!
Yikes, four days on the job and I am pooped already.
But I like my new job, I really really do.
As I drive into the museum location, kind of out in the middle of nowhere, I see the fields and buildings and signs. The trees and snow covered grounds are so beautiful. I have a moment, an internal sigh. It is nice. I don't feel dread or frustration or reservation anymore. This is a new place for me and a new feeling about work.
My work load is huge. And I sit at a desk for almost eight straight hours, trying to untangle all of the duties that I am not quite sure about yet. Do I know how to use all of the Office applications, NO WAY. Do I know how to use that monster printing machine and my email properly, NO WAY. Do I sometimes feel like I have no freakin' clue what is going on, YES! It is a work in serious progress right now. I feel like a newborn just seeing the real world for the first time at times, and it is scary.
Each day I have a rollercoaster of feeling. I accomplish something and feel on-top-of-the-world! Then in the next minute, I totally screw up or do not know how to do a simple task - and I feel like a fool. I hope this is normal and it passes as I become more familiar with my new position.
I put a ton of Violet photographs on my desk and on my bulletin board behind it. I also have some of her artwork at home and I plan to put some up asap. My office walls are bare -- I need some color and Violet-style inspiration!
Violet seems to be okay... as far as our new work/sitter/home schedule is concerned. She has acted up some, but I can't say it is totally related to this new thing or not. She likes the sitter. She had one rough morning out of three, crying that she did not want to go there. She said she wanted to stay with me. It was hard to bring her that day but the sitter was awesome, distracted her as soon as we arrived. I left there feeling better and confident that I we would make it just fine.
I still want her to be in a care facility that is more structured. I want her to be in a learning environment, if she must be away from home. But right now I am sending her where we can afford and looking elsewhere when I can.
Although she seems to be okay with all of this change, she has grown accustomed to sleeping in Mommy and Daddy's beds, which is NOT A GOOD THING AT ALL. It makes for restless nights - for me definitely - and very tired mornings. Not to mention it just seems weird to let happen anymore, she is a big girl now and should be sleeping in her big girl bed. Habits like these are easy to start and hard to break, but like everything else, we will work on the solution.
I think because we are in such a transitional period, as a family and as people (me, V-spot and her Daddy), we have let things slide a little. Letting her sleep in our beds, buying extra toys/pets and trying like hell to make sure she is happy and loved.... We have to watch our actions now, as she is darn smart and knows how to take advantage already.
We have to make sure we do not allow or set-up this potential for bad behavior and brattiness right now because that will come back to bite us, big time!
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