Jumat, 17 Februari 2012

Friday

Baby A is so amazingly, perfectly, wonderfully ADORABLE!















So yesterday was a tough, tough day for me and little V-monster.  I had this super important preschool interview for us and it turned out lousy.  Violet whined and cried and said, "I'm bored" the whole time.  She was rude and stubborn and maybe the worst I have ever seen her be in public.  It was bad.  I got out of there and really let her have it.  Her behavior was totally unacceptable, even for a four-year-old.  It was just too much.  I was so upset and I thought for sure we had blown our chances at that school.

With some friendly reassurance I finished the paperwork though and submitted her registration.  I thought, what the hell, they obviously see that she needs a good place to grow and learn and maybe some structure (and dare I say, discipline!).  And as it turns out, she got in! 

I took the plunge and did it all by myself and I feel really good about it. 

I haven't really felt very self reliant or strong for a long time, and honestly, I don't know how truly independent I even am now -- but taking charge of where I want my little girl to spend her time away from me, has felt empowering and good for my soul.

From a Mom standpoint, I can see that yesterday's preschool incident could have been avoided...
I should have packed her a snack, crayons and a doodle book.  I should have planned better.  In my four years as Violet's Mommy I have picked up on the fact that I have the power alone to make a situation good or bad.
Then, after the incident, I shouldn't have freaked out on her so strongly.  I really let the stress of my life (work, money, love and every other f*cking thing in my brain) come down on her which was a HUGE MISTAKE.  My time with Violet is so limited, it can be devastating to waste a moment of it.

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