An update:
1. So my attempt to exercise 15 days in November failed miserably! I worked out two days only. I have to say I am pretty disappointed but I won't dwell. I can't. My EXCUSE (and I always have one) is that I didn't put myself or my health first because I have a million other things happening at the same time. My schedule has a ton of early mornings which tend to have me groggy and lazy and coffee-bound a lot of times. When I get a handle on my routine, then maybe I can concentrate on better time management. I *did* find the time to get on my yoga mat though, even just once, and I hope I can do more of that soon too.
2. My finances are a nightmare. I know everyone has money issues and they deal, but the pressure is definitely on. I can't sleep thinking about all of my debt and I am scared to spend the smallest amount of cash. And that makes me *want* to spend it, on items that comfort. Like sweets and coffee. Yikes.
3. My lack of money makes my brain scramble when it comes to planning my diet. I have no idea where to start and I am severely overwhelmed right now. What can I afford? The good stuff costs WAY MORE than the convenient. I know I really should take it one-step-at-a-time, as to make my biggies into smaller, easier-to-handle parts. But I have so many parts!! Double yikes.
4. On a different note, I have been feeling this awful nagging Violet-related feeling lately. It rips and pulls at my heart so bad. It is the thought that she is growing up too fast! I don't want her to get any older!! I know it sounds weird so I wonder if other Mommies ever get this feeling too -- I say yeah, they probably do and at that point they have another child! But I do not want any more babies, I just want her and I want her to always be my baby. I love her SO MUCH.
5. The job search continues, especially now in light of my brokeness. I actually have been looking for slightly less "professional" type opportunities and night jobs too. I still want to make more money while maximizing my Violet time.... I have been thinking about graduate school again and as always, teacher training. But as my finances continue to spiral down, those dreams seem more and more distant. I am definitely unclear and still floundering when it comes to my future.
1. So my attempt to exercise 15 days in November failed miserably! I worked out two days only. I have to say I am pretty disappointed but I won't dwell. I can't. My EXCUSE (and I always have one) is that I didn't put myself or my health first because I have a million other things happening at the same time. My schedule has a ton of early mornings which tend to have me groggy and lazy and coffee-bound a lot of times. When I get a handle on my routine, then maybe I can concentrate on better time management. I *did* find the time to get on my yoga mat though, even just once, and I hope I can do more of that soon too.
2. My finances are a nightmare. I know everyone has money issues and they deal, but the pressure is definitely on. I can't sleep thinking about all of my debt and I am scared to spend the smallest amount of cash. And that makes me *want* to spend it, on items that comfort. Like sweets and coffee. Yikes.
3. My lack of money makes my brain scramble when it comes to planning my diet. I have no idea where to start and I am severely overwhelmed right now. What can I afford? The good stuff costs WAY MORE than the convenient. I know I really should take it one-step-at-a-time, as to make my biggies into smaller, easier-to-handle parts. But I have so many parts!! Double yikes.
4. On a different note, I have been feeling this awful nagging Violet-related feeling lately. It rips and pulls at my heart so bad. It is the thought that she is growing up too fast! I don't want her to get any older!! I know it sounds weird so I wonder if other Mommies ever get this feeling too -- I say yeah, they probably do and at that point they have another child! But I do not want any more babies, I just want her and I want her to always be my baby. I love her SO MUCH.
5. The job search continues, especially now in light of my brokeness. I actually have been looking for slightly less "professional" type opportunities and night jobs too. I still want to make more money while maximizing my Violet time.... I have been thinking about graduate school again and as always, teacher training. But as my finances continue to spiral down, those dreams seem more and more distant. I am definitely unclear and still floundering when it comes to my future.
Tidak ada komentar:
Posting Komentar